Monday, December 13, 2010
Valuable lessons.
I realised that successes and failures aren't the most important things in life. So what if we have succeeded? Indulge ourselves in the joy of success forever? We'll never progress from where we were and we'll face failure eventually. So what if we have failed? Wallow over the pain of failure? Similarly, we'll never get to our destination and we'll just drift further and further away from it. Regardless of success or failure, there're all temporary. 胜勿骄，败勿馁, all we need to do is to keep progressing. Never give up, just keep trying and trying. (:
In every NAC comp that I've watched, I always realise that guys and girls play differently even if they are playing the same piece. I think it's the nature of the genders. This year I only watched erhu open cat's finals. The set piece was Hongmei. All the finalists were guys except one. At the slow part, the difference was very obvious. All played well, but the feelings expressed were different. The guys' versions were 'manlier' while the girl's was gentler. Same goes for the loud and stronger parts, the guys played better becos the strength was just right while the girl's seemed a little weaker. If a guy can play like a girl at gentle parts or if a girl can play like a guy at angsty parts, it would be perfect! :D Haha!! Ok, this shall be my new aim! Besides, I'll admire those who can achieve this! It's not easy you know, to break the limits of the nature of ur gender! hahaha! But I just met someone who's like this! I watched the prize winners' concert last night. The winner of the Sheng open cat was awesome. HE PLAYED LIKE A GIRL! Of course I dont mean he's gay or sissy, but the music was.... (see, it's beyond words). HAHA! Look forward to more of such performances! (:
Yesterday's concert was really fantastic. I enjoy watching good performances with nice reportoire. All performances were great, but the item that touched me the most was the percussion item by Tao Nan Pri Sch. In terms of music and technique, they're indeed not the best last night. But it was touching to see a group of pri sch kids fighting for a common goal. Their piece was tough, but you could see their strong determination in playing the piece well. In this world, there're many skilful players. They can touch the audiences' hearts by playing melodious tunes, but they may not be able to touch their hearts by playing music that's genuinely touching. In my opinion, the only way to play touching music is to have strong determination, passion and attitude.
Im glad that I've learnt such valuable lessons, at least I know how I can improve myself from where I am now. But I realise that I have a long way to go... @.@ *gasps*
1:00 PM
Till we meet again..
Saturday, December 11, 2010
Haha... Am I feeling tired or am I numb of everything already? I don't know why I have no interest in anything. Besides, I'm beginning to feel that things are beyond my control...
I don't know what people are thinking, I don't know why some people do certain things, I don't know what will happen to me, I don't know whether to believe people's words... Speaking of promises, I've a vivid impression of someone telling me harshly that promises are meant to be broken.
Perhaps I'm just too lousy to understand all these, that's why things are beyond my control and I'm losing faith. And because I'm losing faith, I feel lost; I don't know what to do, I don't know how to make decisions anymore.
I think I've changed. I'm becoming more and more cowardly. I don't conquer challenges anymore, I try to escape. I know very well this isnt the way to live life becos I can't escape forever and it's very irresponsible to leave problems unsettled. But why am I succumbing to such an irresponsible move? Because I've lost faith. I don't know what to do anymore. Everything seems to be beyond my control.
Geez, I need a life advisor.
1:04 AM
Till we meet again..
Sunday, December 05, 2010
Somehow I feel quite happy today. Happy not just becos ge had an outstanding performance, but I'm also happy for my friends at the same time.
This is yr is indeed a crazy year for many of us. Commitments pile up as we all grow older. This yr, most of us were either tied down by uni exams, A'lvls or O'lvls. In addition, many of us r involved in the competition too. I have to take my hat off those who also take part in the ensemble category as well cos their practices are very hectic. By today, this crazy period is almost over for most of us. I'm really happy for these people cos we have finally survived through this misery and achieve freedom! Not forgetting those who have to continue fighting in the finals, all the best n do us proud! Haha!
NAC comp is one of the highlights of ge. Most of us look forward to this event becos it's the time when we all bond closer to one another. Despite being tired from the intense practices, despite eating the same food for every meal provided, despite having limited room spaces, we still enjoy the experience as it is the company and team spirit that keep us going. In fact, all these are the little things that we rmb ge for.
In the long battle of nac comp, my favorite part is always the moment after they announce the ensemble category's results. Cheering in joy all together, camwhoring, wreaking havoc on the bus ride back to the cc, having late night supper tgt treated by zls, all these are the best moments. Due to A'lvls, I couldn't commit myself to the ensemble practices, so I helped out as a runner. Sadly, unlike previous years, ge didn't cheer as loud as before when we knew we got into finals. On the bus ride back, the bus was empty and pretty silent. What happened this yr? Have we all become so weary that we can't even lift our spirits up? Or have we taken success for granted?
I miss being part of ge, esp after a long A'lvls break. I hope the finals would be a crazy one! Please give us a good ending too! :)
9:59 PM
Till we meet again..
